In more ways similar than not, yet still on opposing teams too often, I’m glad you are my mom, mom. It’s been a long and rough path for us these past few years, but not all things in life can be overcome as easy as the life you’ve given me. You’ve blessed me an opportunistic life from day one, given me unique characteristics, traits and talents that I am more than thankful for. Frankly, I live quite a privileged life thanks to you and dad; being able to live the American dream full of opportunity, being able to chase my dreams although it took me a while to realize them and a while for you two to be okay with them. We were never up to par on our separate outtakes on life, never agreed on most of the choices that I’ve made in life, but somewhere along the line came understanding. The kind of understanding and support you finally gave me was all I needed all along. Now I am more than confident that if time permits, I can accomplish anything I want to, because you taught me and constantly reminded me that I have to do what I love and that’s exactly what I’m doing. Happy Mother’s Day!
I’ve been tallying up the days I’ve been wasting- I’ve been lax for way too long now and it’s time for me to start prioritizing and narrowing down my niches to my absolute calling (although I highly doubt I’ll be satisfied with doing just one thing for the rest of my life). A couple of things that I’ve learned about myself is that my world revolves around working with my hands and art, and that I get bored quickly. I think that’s enough to know to help me decide on a plan for my future.
I’ve never been great at anything, just good at a lot of things, and lately I’ve been craving to be great. I believe that we all can be great at whatever we aspire to be with the right mindset and a good balance of effort, time and money. I’ve been trying to figure out my life for a while now, trying out new things to see what’s good, but in the end I feel that I’m just ricocheting amongst all of my niches and it’s a never-ending cycle. That loop’s got to stop. Everything never seizes to amaze me, which isn’t always a good thing, nor is it always a bad thing.
I give into temptation so easily so I lose focus easily too. For a while now, I’ve been contemplating what I want to focus on, which means I’ve got to put all of my other interests on hold for a few moments, or indefinitely. I’ve been indecisive for way too long and I’m done with all of my excuses. Frankly it’s time to start moving forward and get my life straightened out. I’m not getting any younger and since time only allows so much, the time to start is now.